It’s happened before. It’ll probably happen again. It happened today. I’ve lost my mojo.
When I started Eat the Rich, I thought it was great getting in three pages a day (I’m very proud of that pace), and having a hundred pages in about a month, and this and that. It was a wonderful high. And taking time off this weekend, I thought I’d come back to the story typing and picking like a motherfucker.
That didn’t happen.
I thought, “Twenty pages is good. Fifty pages is great. A hundred pages, this thing could really take off.” Hell, I thought that reaching the hundredth page would put me in the clear for sure. It didn’t. I found myself struggling to get the story across. Those three pages came out sounding forced. And then, this morning, I thought how the story was boring me.
I feel bad about this. I really do. I’ve got friends who were really hoping to read this. But if Eat the Rich bores me, it’ll bore the reader too. Always trust that rule: if you‘re bored, the readers will notice it and feel the same way.
Now, granted, it’s a month of my time gone, but it could have been worse. It could have been a few years. When a story doesn’t work, I step back and think of the pros and cons, and hopefully learn something.
Pros. I know that I can work very diligently. Just about every day, I’d tell myself that I’d meet my three-page quota come Hell or high water. For the most part, this was done. Early on, I committed to two pages a day, but then I upped the dosage. So as far as getting the work done, I feel very good about that.
Cons. I strayed too far from the premise of cannibalistic celebrities. That was a cool idea to me, but after the first big murder scene around eighty or ninety pages in, the story shifted from cannibalism to murder and covering up that murder. I don’t like murder stories. I don’t think they’re bad. I just don’t find them interesting. Again, boredom is infectious.
Once again, I’m proud that I got through a hundred pages of Eat the Rich considering that I was making it up as I went along, but I think I need to try something else.
We’ll see what happens.